Saturday, March 31, 2007

singapore.
the train rides.
the trend sights.
the tanktop shorts flipflops.
the familiar walk along orchard.
from shaw to wisma to cine to ps.
cab rides just to catch world cup.
melonlemon and sthsthpassion. jellyovodka's teh sex (:
i miss wearing my nanyang uniform alot. i dont know why.
size 38 pe tee paired with short pleated skirt folded twice.
ankle socks which transcend visibility.
hci. not so much cos of my ugly hair.
ugly people. ugly happenings.
"why didnt you attend the lectures?"
"where did you go?"
"who made you do it?"
HELLO I'M NO FUCKING PRISONER AND YOU AINT MY FATHER.
pang your beady eyes gives me so much creeps
i think you should go waffletown to sell crepes.

what if i were still in hci.
gahhh, i cant imagine.
aint cut for graduation

highschool lover. lifetime partner.

i miss doing backbends on the slidebars of the dancefloor stairs.
hear those bones crack.
C-R-A-C-K.
feel your tedons and hamstrings getting p..u...l....l....e.....d
it makes you feel so alive.
rejuvenation.

pain. ease my lament

qing bites

8:54 PM

Friday, March 30, 2007

vindictive.

i am. (:

free comedy?

be my guest.

qing bites

2:20 PM

Thursday, March 29, 2007

(:
props to ash precious
plus a few licks.
love you my xiaoxigua (:

qing bites

11:18 PM

to thine own self be true

qing bites

10:50 PM

one very very very very very happy qing now!
and ash is happyash too now i guess (:

vuloptious!
i dont care!
i'm one beeeeeg bimbo!

my darling's so hot!
she's david/victoria beckham.
kate/pete moss doherty.

love you baby.
(:
you bring me so much joy (:
i need you too.
just as much as how you need me.
i'll stay.
you'll stay.

qing bites

12:33 AM

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

physics!
(:
merit?
yarighttt!

econs lalala!

it's just this pressure that builds up in yourself slowly.
cumulation effect. not chemistry biology or physics i'm talking about here.
more of a psychological term, emotions that are welled up inside you.
negligible as they seem, it snowballs into something that's capable of stirring up hysterias.
everyone's possession.
mine went quite well today actually.
at least at that moment of insanity,
i managed to make a decision that's made my day.
i thrive well in stress and i feed on adversity.
persecution? well fine. you lost a merit student. (:
cheeeers! (:

qing bites

10:00 PM

burgundy burgundy burgundy.
everywhere i turn now i see a sea of red somehow.
):

fuck. why my haircolor got so damn common 2 months after i dyed it!?

i need a haircut soon.
maybe in a month or so after it's got the length for layering, styling and such.
i'm going for a new haircolor! :D
darling should i go ashblonde?! ((:
or maybe i should just save the money! ((:

oh. my attendance on my term one report

22/50
:D
rocks aye?

qing bites

6:59 PM

Tuesday, March 27, 2007

BUNG WANNABE?!?!

fyi,

my girlfriend and i are both very much sought after.

that's why we're always getting little weird midgets like you and lard.

squashing and squishing their way into the scene.

when you're totally out of the place

ALWAYS.

WHAT APPALLING AND AESTHETICAL ABRASION ARE YOU WEARING!?

AND OMG!

how much did that hairstylist pay you to experiment with your hair?!

go eat shit and die really.

drink lard.

better!

lard can go into your stomach and you can die of coronary heart failure.

shit i'm late for school

qing bites

7:47 AM

Monday, March 26, 2007

(:
baby i'm close to knocking out. ):
was running on my reserve fuel today.
had a huge bottle of lift plus.
it's like vodka redbull, no alcohol content but it's got the kick and twist.
lemon with trace of gingseng and caffeine.

was just rushing to complete my calculus.
that's when nostalgic sweetness came flooding in.
trig functions, trig identities. trig pythagoras. trig components, trig double angle.
gosh.
aPrime.
your messages that used to always come at the right time when i'm dozing off scrawling senseless equations all over foolscaps.
from telling me you're sun tanning at 9am on a saturday morning.
to random bitching about family (:
i was so engaged by you really.
even if the topic can bore my off by any other extremely hot people (regarded by others not me)
darling do you know.
it's this amazing feeling that nobody can explain.
a few days with you and it seems to me i've known you for years.
you can tell me things about me i dont know even know myself.
you finish my sentences.
complete my lines.
complete me (:

complete us

qing bites

11:47 PM

Sunday, March 25, 2007

my air force one black denim bright rose!

what the fuck!!

now it's only available online!

and it costs us$130+custom fees etc

)):

i'm so sad

qing bites

4:05 PM

my baby loves me!
(:
and i love her just as much.

qing bites

2:25 PM

keep your shades on.
and your fringe down.

as for her.
do you call it fashion road kill.
or is it
basic instinctive cladding shown in mankind since the age of apes
that pretty much hasnt gone through evolution yet.

wardrobe malfunction.
3rd choice of term.

qing bites

1:16 PM

Saturday, March 24, 2007

i'm in a foul mood.

and this. is the biggest little birdie anyone can ever see.
it cant fly. but it can run really fast.

i swear i saw it drop from the tree.
and was trying to identify it.
between a
duck
pigeon
magpie
random ET.

-.-
but shit it doesnt seem to like me
its parents too.
enough of animal rescue.
i need to rescue myself and bring myself back to my darling first.

qing bites

11:15 PM

baby i miss you so much )):

and dont worry, no matter what i'm here with you.
even if you run away from me.
i'll chase after you till i'm right next to where you are.

((((:

love<3
alot

))):
sometimes i wish i wont be so.
so.
so observant.
why do i always spot duck in drains.
and pigeon/duck/seagull baby bird lookalike underneath trees.
and nest of kittens underneath useless furnitures at hdb voiddecks.

it's so cold outside now.
should i bring that baby bird back?
or maybe its parents have already brought it back into the nest somehow.
what if i bring it back.
is it to witness another death.
or will it be better for it?

darling if only you were here with me.
you'll know what to do.
):
i'm haunted by the death of meowmeow.
we tried everything but it's like so futile.
escape death.
find your own fate.
a matter of believing.
or something beyond us.

qing bites

8:53 PM

precious taught me to be nice.
(:

i miss my precious.
hughughughug!

qing bites

12:29 PM

Friday, March 23, 2007

fracturing my ankle on the very first day of school last year.
not cos i was too excited.
but dreading it so much i ran hell late.

it was good.
(:
we had such great sex with cast on(:

taking mrt round and round the raffles & city hall interchanges.
cos we're both idiots when we are rich & glam.
money screw minds.

running all the way from hwa chong to get chicken porridge opposite beauty world.
(:
then down to woodlands to make you laugh.
after making everything look black/brown
cos i so fancy the dark sauce.
they taste good hor!?

stupidly give myself away about hills have eyes.
the girl with the red hoodie ran past! i jumped!
-gasp.
i'm so dumb.

we still havent yangtze yet baby.
(:
choose a pair of pants you dont want.
and a shirt you're about to dump.
watch the movie with no old man sitting behind us in case we get showered by his -eeeks!
ok i shant go on.

speak into a fan.
cling onto each other.
wear sec sch uniform and parade around holding hands.
so much to do precious.

i want to give you all my lucky stars really.
that's if i have any.
they'll catch all your nightmares.
and give you sweet caramelo dreams.
they'll make sure you get all that you want.
and shield you from any harm.
they'll burn the hands of those who want a piece of you.
and inch us nearer and nearer as each day past.

ilu babyash.

for your eyes only (:

qing bites

11:40 PM

waking up to you reading the papers by the bed.

i wake up every morning wondering where i am.
and where are you.

then take another 5 minutes to let reality sink in.

trauma.
yours.
mine.

qing bites

1:03 PM

Thursday, March 22, 2007

i dont want school.

should i go?

if i go i save 35bucks.

so yeah.

lots to buy, lots to send, lots to settle.

easy ways out. alternative routes.

there's no other ways than the one i've chosen to take.

kids.

what do they know?

except to wail and whine for allowance,

no interest, no terms and conditions, no strings attached.

explaining, pleasing, pleading, getting manipulated, getting your life mapped.

in return you get your fees paid, you get allowance, you get your laundry done. so?

why get some wind up?

like i've said, denial is the most futile form of defence.

yeah, it's so obvious,

I AM PRETTIER THAN YOU.

period.

qing bites

10:08 PM

i give you all my shining lucky star for today darling!
i dont mind falling, tripping, slidding,
getting slapped, getting scolded or anything really
(:
just let everything wonderful happen to you from now on ok?

(:
ilu<33

qing bites

2:29 PM

hello qing's no pushover.
you bit at my precious, so now i'm not going to let you off your case.
want to talk big? yeah, sure.
juliana cai, did you like came up with your own dictionary?
since when must plastic surgery be really that plastic?
only kids in primary school take words in so literally.

Plastic surgery is a specialty that uses surgical techniques to change the appearance and function of patients' bodies.[1] Some of these operations are called "cosmetic", and others are called "reconstructive".
The word "plastic" derives from the Greek plastikos meaning to mold or to shape; its use here is not connected with the synthetic polymer material known as plastic.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Plastic_surgery

there you go.
*is yours not a reconstructive surgery that results in a change of your physical appearance?
even braces are plastic surgery orthodontical by nature.

by the way, who the fuck wants to know what your funky malocclusion is? unless they're blessed with a misaligned jaw like yours? talk about karma, you must be too explicit and untactful with words in your past life to be adorned with such an out-of-world jawline by birth.

height?
164 much of a big deal? you dont even qualify to enter miss singapore la please!
do you know the existence of wedges and platforms?
oh no, you cant even differentiate the levis cuts, so yeah, we shant be too hopeful.

trashing it out face to face?
i'm too far away and clearly, you aint worth the airfare and time,
so i'll only drop by to honour you with a slap or two soon after.

brawling with words can be fun too yup?
maybe not so fun for you, given your pathetic collection of words that doesnt go beyond longman learner's dictionary.
why dont you just blog in chinese?
no wait.
you aint even monolingual.
illiterate. yeah that's the word.

yeah. not only your english sucks, your maths sucks too.
throw in equal suckiness in general knowledge to make it a combo.
4 words for you
eat shit and die.

that's for lard.

qing bites

1:27 PM

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

xiaxue got a tattoo!
:

and her tattoo artist is jeremy from primitive @ fep. : :

my tattoo looks better than hers i dont care!
i think he's going to up the price soon.
hmm.
but i'm still getting QA on my left forearm there i think.
not in the centre duh!
i want it to be near the wrist slightly skewed and tilted to the right.
heheh.

qing bites

11:21 PM

omg! mel you made me laugh!
like laugh out loud laugh!
haha, you should blog more so i can read and laugh more!!

fats wobble and wave hi back!! :D
ram face into wall in hope to get protruded jaw in place!
who knows, maybe she's done it before already?

hahah!
famous quotes from mel!
i'll write you an email once i'm all well!

dont use my words against me,
it backfires.

think, a sea of paparazzi,
to lightning.
what's the link?
paparazzi use flash under the most crucial/ideal circumstances,
sneaking and snooping low;

usually they dont fire camflash at all to avoid getting into shit with celebrities.
that's why all the tabloids are filled to brim with blurry gossip pics taken at weird angles.
do you crave for attention so badly that even your imageries gotta somehow capture the limelight?
HAHAHA.
aiyah go buy a disco ball la.
that'll shower you with ample glimmer and shine yea?
my larrrdy glitzzy michelle?

& now.
this,
is really what people call.
incongruous use of words.

snap it or get slapped.

ps//
there's no such word as incongruency la ok? you meant incongruity aye?
fuck la.
dont know your stuff dont strut around leh.
if not act big for what the hell?
you might as well join juliana cai in face slamming.

omg
my instant cure to flu.

qing bites

9:02 PM

i hate falling sick.
everything takes a turn.
my vision gets ultra sensitive. picking up all details, especially those that gross me out.
i lost my sense of smell. no food appeals.
and my weight's plunged back to 51.5kg. which isnt that bad after all.
all voices and sounds goes around muffled. like i'm perpetually underwater.
"pardon?" and "sorry?"
it makes me look so stupid.

my new flatmate is moving in )):
i just cleaned up the whole house.
bleach and detergents.
corrode my skin and erode my sight.
seriously i hate to share. even pencils and erasers all the same.
but we shared the same underwear! :D
i dont mind dont mind!
moremoremore!
vee vant morrrre!

teleport yourself to me.
fuck everything else really.
you're all i need.

qing bites

1:47 PM

愛你不需要原因　只要有一顆真心　

分隔兩地也可以傳給你愛你不會有距離　

只要你在我心裡　隨時隨地我也可以感覺得到你

有時候我也會碰到不如意　

寧願哈哈大笑也不要哭哭啼啼付出去的感情　

就算都沒有回應　可以碰到你已經覺得非常幸運

失敗做錯了　也沒什麼關係　換個髮型或是唱唱歌發洩情緒

不要浪費時間　一直躲在後悔裡　要找回那顆不認輸的心

決定要做的事情　不要輕易受打擊　

今天不行還有明天可以決定要談的愛情　

不要隨便就放棄　幸福全部要靠自己努力去爭取

ripped off cindy's blog. (:

qing bites

12:37 AM

darling i just sneezed! twice! did you too?! did you did you?

aiyah i'm too lazy to blog.
i blog on emails to my baby ash!
((:

qing's precious!

you got precious?

walks off smugly.

qing bites

12:28 AM

Monday, March 19, 2007

& you're always there when i'm in need.
thank you really (:

how you lift me up.
yet still make me feel so safe.

just a few minutes ago i was engulfed by fright and trauma.

(:
my ash.

temperature reading :38.5
just wait till tonight.
it's going to soar so high.

qing bites

10:03 PM

Sunday, March 18, 2007

you taught me how to sleep sound, rest well, by jamming the door with a chair.
i taught you how to find the crispy golden caramel coated popcorn in the dark of the cinema theatre.

now i'm going to put it to good use.
will you wait for me to treasure hunt again?

i sit idle, wondering, why are bitches nowadays so anal.
so what if the truth is not what i see, not what it is.
at the end of the day, what's pivotal?
your truth, or my say?

what's blasphemy when religions are hypothetical by nature?

no i'm not living my days dazed
something called selective effacement.
your denfense mechanism is too passe.
truth unfolds itself to the selfworthy,
you crack it open, break it to the world
well who's going to buy it?

that flicker of gleam in my eyes,
is it your lighter or my match.
go old school.

how much you weigh on the scale is not proportionate to how much you matter.
your collection of impressive vocabulary doesnt enhance your captivation index of hearts.

i dont care what you know.
i dont care what happened.
who's the stakeholder now?
(:
goodbye.

qing bites

11:38 PM

fuck kiwis

qing bites

5:32 PM

turn back time.
not by an hour.
turn it back by a year.

qing bites

11:19 AM

i didnt know.
didnt feel.

love is complicated. cos it's unbelievably simple.
so hard to explain, cos it cant be explained.

i love you as you are.
give out my whole heart.

qing bites

1:10 AM

Saturday, March 17, 2007

your writings?
travesties.

qing bites

4:56 PM

Friday, March 16, 2007

to learn to trust.
and honour the ones who really deserves it.

it's not something you can ask for, neither are there criterias drawn.
to gain it, is a matter of mutual understanding and respect.
an unspoken pact.
breaking it is one thing, relinquishing is another,
the heart doesnt die a slow death.

"i cannot change the color already, i only see a picture of landscape! -whinewhine"
(:
how more adorable can you get?
i want to please you in every single way i can.

not going to back to mend what's broken,
i broke those and it cant be helped.
rather lay the path before us,
pray for a smooth sail,
you didnt chase me.
i chose you.

qing bites

10:48 PM

my precious is so cute!
so adorable that i want to bite you!
especially when you whine and wail. omg irresistableness.

I LOVE MY BABY ASH! ((:

我要帮你种草莓！

qing bites

8:13 PM

happy one year three months baby (:
i love you.
all the same.
from children's day 05
to halloween 05
to 16/12/05
to 22nd april 06
to 30th august 06
to now

everything you say, you do. capture me in such a way i can never explain
bewitching

heartaches.
i'll take it all away.
and give you only joy
bring only smiles to your face.

at the cost of anything.

qing bites

12:15 AM

Thursday, March 15, 2007

omg. my attendance in primary school was always 95-100%
my attendance in hci was less than 50%.
my attendance here in aggs

a freaking faltering 80%
anything less than that.
robyn rose will not be buying anymore of my

我不会讲英语。
对，我是清懿的妈妈。
no english no english.
i dont know english!

fuck la. i seriously dont feel like attending school can? what's the fucking point when i can just home school myself.
fuck.
i go to school to laugh silly at myself with cindy.
devising ways to earn money.
planning my return to singapore.
yeah.
ok fine. one measly reason. give it a pass.

qing bites

7:36 PM

hello i'm so fucking smart!:D

wo heng cong ming!

i got merit for calculus )):
but i got excellence for bio and chem! :D

physics coming up ))):
i dont like physics. never liked it before.

what's mine's mine.
even if you love mine a thousand times.
look out for who you're really dealing with before you make a move.

pain.
ease my lament.

qing bites

5:44 PM

Wednesday, March 14, 2007

hello i have so much things to do, yeah lor, i shouldnt be blogging.
but it organizes my life in a way. and kinda alleviates stress!! :D
the next best thing to.
BEING WITH MY DARLING!!

heh.

i have to.

revise my physics, term test on friday.
finish my fucking bio manual page 164-195 im one big fat piece of dead meat.
carry my laptop digicam valuables around on thurs fri sat sun till monday. -fuck la i'll just die
call amy to tell her i still want to sell charsiewpaus.
coax cindy into buying that layer top with me. 2 for 35bucks. yeah, auckland getting VERY FREEZING COLD suddenly. min temp 14 ok!? oh yeah, i was drenched all over today after training.

DARLING I MISS YOU)):
you know you always make everything feel so right?
even when i'm darn depressed. you've still got a way to put things into place.
and how it used to be just a warm hug, a few soothing whispers.

nothing's too tiring, too painful. just dont leave.
that breaks my heart, makes me fall apart, inside out.

i dont get some people.
"i've decided to let go of you cos i love you, and it's the best for you"
how can that be fucking possible?
how do you love by leaving.
how do you know what's the best?
why's leaving the best when all she wants is you?

and all i want for life is you, so dont ever let go. you havent before. and i'll never let you.

qing bites

11:30 PM

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

i dont think anyone would have written you a poem in your entire lifetime.
up till today.
and i dont think you'll be getting any.

yeah. any, in BOTH notions.
(:

baby i miss you.
alotalotalot.
lovelove!
catch you later.

lalala

qing bites

1:00 PM

Monday, March 12, 2007

there's so many pics i want to post.
explicits i want to throw.
anger i want to vent.
mine.

but there are so many
superscripts in heart.
subscripts to feelings.
annotations for behaviors.
connotations to emotions.
why do you have to live for others.
in shadow of those actions when it's long gone, or rather, long done.
why take words to heart.
when oaths are delivered by pastors but promises never delivered to who it's for.
to steer away from sensitivity.
you're only gearing up for breakdown.

you dont need to have an inkling of what i'm talking about.
cos i dont know myself.
but one thing's for sure, i love you, and i'll take everything in.

qing bites

8:26 PM

what? correct your grammar? (grammar only?!)
that's the understatement of the century please.
why will somebody like me bother to waste time on someone who spells grammar as "GRAMMER"!!?!?!?!

and cambridge invigilators(?!?!)
cmon, invigilators are people who keeps watch over exam candidates at the examination.
you mean script markers and analyzers i guess?

GOSH.

and who the fuck owes you money?
you threw your 50bucks away.
by scrutinizing your tutor's jeans to such minute and preciseness,
that,
after ONE WHOLE LESSON of maths,
you still cant do 3/4 + 1/2.
but oh well, you learnt 3/9 + 4/9 = 7/9 yeap?
it's worth the money for somebody at a Primary Four Streaming level really.

by the way, people ought to be paid keeping you company, cos they gotta brave the danger of fainting at the sight your hideous disformed face and weather the shower of your crude/senseless language,
they win my respect. let's applaud violet and gough. and yumiko or some kiko shit.

ohyeah, dont even mention the word fashionista when you arent even fit to read any fashion mags.
who the hell cant tell Levis Slim Cut to Levis Straight Cut to Fox Denim?

oh yeah, i forgot. bananas are yellow from top to toe.
making them colorblind and visually handicapped.

smack on that bitch

qing bites

6:53 PM

Sunday, March 11, 2007

lalala
-white
:[

my ways of being happy
on my own.

qing bites

5:39 AM

Saturday, March 10, 2007

i'm in need of some trimmingslimmingshaping.
getting flabby and fat.
gained a fucking 3.5 kg.
yeah, i either starve or stuff. that's qing.
it's either i like you or hate you.
easy as that.

liquid diet!!:D
breakfast will be milk and cornflakes(nonfat)
recess will be apple and lunchbar.
lunch will be eh. let's forget about lunch!
dinner's yoghurt and apple/banana!

if i forget. please remind.
and tell me i'm fat.
i want a flat tummy

quackquack misses you

qing bites

11:04 PM

quackquackquackquack
quackquack
quack
quackquackquackquackquack

_o_e _eo_ _e a_e _o _o_e_
_ _e_ fucking _ea_ _ _ _ _ _o_ e_e_ y _ a _
a_d _e_o_ _ a_ _ _o_ _e_ _ _u_ _ _o _ui_ _ _ _i_e _i_ _
_ _ darling!

_u_ _ _o _i_er_!!!

it takes a duck to read those.
i am a duck.
are you are you? :D
QUACK!

qing bites

12:29 PM

Friday, March 9, 2007

i really dont know how i survived today.

woke up extremely early.

at around 6.

to prepare my baby's package. YES! i sent her another package just!

countdown to 8 days!

and i tried to collect my quackquack parcel in the morn too but it wasnt there.

got nab to school cos there's my chemistry NCEA practical assessment.

around 3 hours of titration.

god. i did the so many titrations i dream of thiosulphate and ocl.

longest day of the week. from 8 till 3. wtf.

then it was being a debt chaser with cindy.

ran home. put down my bag. removed my contacts cos i'm having eye inflammation/infection.

ran to postshop. picked up my parcel!!! it's so big!

but i lugged it to my work place anyhow.

BABY I CANT WAIT TO OPEN THE PARCEL UP!

COME HOME COME HOME!

lovelove.

i'm not exactly a very expressive person.

i'd rather you see what i'm doing. know what i'm going through and how i feel for you.

i'm sorry for today. but you know what i want is you. just you.

qing bites

8:41 PM

Thursday, March 8, 2007

you know me so well.
i dont even see a point to talk sometimes.

that's when we just stare, and nothing breaks the silence.
it seems more like tranquility to me.
i'm not into verbal communication.
exception applies only to rare selective individuals.
you're the first.
i speak my mind to.

I CANT WAIT FOR MY QUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACKQUACK
!!!!

heh.
i'll wake up extra early tomorrow to get my quack and post your eck (:
lovebabylove!

qing bites

11:42 PM

best way to make myself happy?

and my darling happy as well?

BUY STUFF FOR MY BABYY!

it's kinda taunting actually. everytime i walk into a boutique. i start looking for stuff her size, her style, her cut, her. just something ash. yeap.

i dont even give a shit to all the girly stuff nowadays. it gets boring.

and cindy's like me. so yeah, we make a great pair shopping for our significant other.

i got her an authentic ecko shirt. (:

IT'S SO PRETTY I LOVE I LOVE!

darling i let you see how it's like ok? sorry for being a spoiler, kills the suspense but builds up anticipation all the same aye?

it's a size M. so should fit you snugly (:
pretty prettyyy. lovelove!

qing bites

7:10 PM

my pain. my tears,
nobody knows.

personal struggles?
i go through them everysinglefuckingday.

goodnight.

qing bites

6:02 AM

Wednesday, March 7, 2007

yeah. i've decided to not kill my blog after all.
but sure enough i'm taking a break from the virtual reality.
it's got its perks yep, but maybe i'm just getting too old for all these.

took on a job.
hope my trial period can be over soon so i can start getting paid.
inching nearer to my darling! ((:

MY DARLING'S PARCEL'S HERE!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!
AND I'M GOING TO PICK IT UP ON FRIDAYYY!!!!!

nz courier and sp post love us.

(:

baby i love you.

qing bites

9:00 PM

Monday, March 5, 2007

love you baby precious.

qing bites

12:43 AM