Saturday, October 6, 2007
hey darling (:
it's just so comforting. to be with you on the phone.
i'm sorry, bet i was irritating the hell out of you just now with my incessant chant of passwordpasswordpassword ):
yeah, you're so smart, i'm insecure.
given both of past, it's hard not to. i know you're mature enough to have got over everything,
for me, it's not that easy ):
remember how i hide so much things from you when we first got together?
till now i still think it's a miracle that i have you with me, going strong.
so to me, things like this, like giving you my password, letting you know my whereabouts my routines my everything. is like a way to gain your trust again and also make up to what i've done.
everything you said, things like "let your actions speak" "it's hard to trust you like that"
they are like the fundamental values which propells me to doing things.
i live to please.. only you. (:
and to hear you giggle is the most wonderful moments for me right now (:
and as for you, darling can you still recall the times when you said
"do you not want blatancy in love? you're just not open enough to accept the truth"
it hurts do you know? and your truth hurts me too. but just not as much as the fact that, i'm only worthy of a cover up, a lie.
this might sound a bit uncomfortable to you, but havent we been together long enough to understand what will trigger each other's tears and heartaches?
i know walking away from you, disappearing from you, taking other's side instead of yours, believing in what others say and choosing to let outsiders outweigh you, hurts you alot.
my insecurity, paranoia, possessiveness can get you feeling strangled too.
so i'm trying to change (: (:
at the end of the day, it's ash precious! :D who matters the most.
your patience is just remarkable darling.
you bother to explain (:
but i bother to listen :D
so hughug!!!
darlingg, i'm really dumb,
i didnt know i hurt you so much. ):
till just now when you told me you cried. after we first kissed.
i was really scared too. more scared than heartbreak cos i wasn't expecting anything from you at all, BACK THEN. sorry la! but yeah, cos your friendster profile screams BUAYA. last time
anyways, let those all be history, we'll just focus on being romantic!! :D
like what you've said, i'll just do whatever you want me to ok?
suddenly remember the first time you slapped me (:
it was cos of me kissing atee. )):
i was really stupid, but it's also that slap that's finally woke me up and snapped me out of the judgemental transfixed idea that you're a hwwwge player.(:
it hurt me quite a bit, not the force of the slap but that you've actually SLAPPED ME!!!
like wtf! i liked you leh you still slap me!
(somemore in front of an old witch plus a gheena ahlian!) ok that's not the point.
i just couldnt believe you've got the heart.
then again, the look of regret and hurt on your face and the tears.
it was then that i finally realize you mean it all with your heart and that i do matter more than what i think. (:
baby i'm really sorry for all these sorrows that i've put us through,
what to do you're stucked with a noob at love.
so no romance ): i'll just be a constant spoiler! xp
ALAS!
dont ever give up ok?
be patient cos i'll always be trying to be the perfect girlfriend for you no matter how many times i'm destined to fail.
a little compliment from time to time from you will help alot! :D
小宝贝，
一直以来，从那刻起，你就成了我生命里的唯一。
没有眼泪，没有心碎。
这一点，我可以发誓。
亲亲！