Tuesday, November 6, 2007
hello precious.
you're prolly sleeping now.
hope you'll feel better.
been staring at you through the cab journey home.
you look, so serene, but at the same time my heart aches.
you're always telling me it's nothing to do with me, just you're not managing your time properly and not getting enough rest.
i'll stick to my words, we'll be logical and rationale ok?
no more late nights, or impulsive acts, or over spending, or binge eating.
(:
healthy diet and healthy lifestyle! (:
hmm, baby do you know i was really really tempted to get you to come over to sleep in with me tomorrow morning? since you've already taken a sickie.
and then i'll have you for the whole dayyy!!!!!!!!
it's the i can never get enough of you feeling.
every tiny bit of you, every second spent with you(:
i've always hated myself for leaving, hated that one decision, hated the distance between us,
but somehow, it's also taught me to cherish you more.
no, if you ask me if i could turn back time to make the choice again, i'll never have left.
too costly a price to pay for learning that important bit.
darling, i'm scared, scared you'll want to spend more time with me cos i'm always so needy, then you'll neglect your studies cos you think it'll be fine since you only want a life with me,
then when it screw up everyone will be drilling the idea of us destroying each other into you.
and you'll want a break up like the 10mile junction incident.
no more. please?
we'll just be very good kids.
and do what we should be doing.
i'll always remember the weekend (:
you coming to me wearing your black nike shirt.
show me to my cosy room. stocked with goodies ((: i love
me getting to hug you so tight again, feeling more real than anything else,
not like in the dreams where everything disappears right after we're about to kiss. every single time.
saturday morning you rushing to me with everything i need and more.
pushing you to the ground and you throwing me to the wall. almost (:
bedding you. (almost almost)
to be able to stare at you so so close again, on bed.
kissing you and secretly peep at you once in a while x)
reluctance to leave the bed.
holding hands again waiting for lift.
taking the mrt with you from admiralty,
advancing to the reflective surface place,
going through your song list to find sad songs which brings nostalgia.
where'd you go.
here without you.
only to really cry when i come across a song so unexpected.
turning away cos i know i dont really have a right to cry.
heck it it's over and i love you.(:
plaza sing toilet.(:
where we had sex.
where we fought.
where i said the most insane thing that i cant imagine i could. still. it's hurt you, and i hate myself for saying those. baby to me, you're perfect, wasn't so at first, but as time goes, i know you're the only one for me.
and then running to cathay ((:
your umbrella so cute i love(:
can we go watch a movie there please?
they have the big big popcorn? no?
then we go lido buy and smuggle in ok?
then you brought me to vivocity!!!!:D:D
hahaha, i really do feel like an idiotic tourist.
if you want a toy poodle, i'll insist on a schnauzer. then we'll have both, eventually. ok?
hmm,
sunday you looked so tired. ):
i better go sleep soon interview tomorrow. (:
hope i'll find a job soon so i wont bother you so much baby.
hugs!
ilu.
text u night now!
fall asleep holding hands with me soon darling.