Tuesday, April 21, 2009

thank you darling,
for showering me with so much love, care, being so patient and understanding all the time, not to mention how accommodating you are. how you can and you are the only person in this world who can tolerate my unreasonable moodswings and irritating-ness.

you laugh it off as if i'm the cutest thing in the world when i cant even stand myself a second after i say things like
i'm TEEEEEEEEEN points better than you.

i wish i can spend the whole of my 21st birthday with you.
without a worry for anything else in this world.

like how i slept on you today on 74express.
as if there's nobody else around us.
until tv mobile started blasting indian songs,
such rude awakening to my sweet little dream bubble ):

all mine!
and i'm all yours.
(:

i love you
:D

qing bites

5:11 AM

Sunday, April 19, 2009

only i know what i really meant for this entry to scream

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5:14 AM

Thursday, April 16, 2009

i'm sorry. can't u just forgive me? i got gd news. please call me back.
ash | 07.10.06 - 5:55 am | #

ash's precious. always. please... i'm going nuts. all i want is just to hear from you.

i'd fight everything. i can't lose u.
ash | 07.10.06 - 6:00 am | #

DARLING. I REALLY TRIED TO GET TO YOU. BUT UR DAD IS GONNA CALL THE COPS. PLS. IM HELPLESS AND ALONE. CALL ME BACK. OR JUST TEXT. IM INJURED TOO. I WANT YOUUUUUUU...

DO I HAVE TO KILL MYSELF TO PROVE I LOVE YOU? I WILL.

THINK ABT US.
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:41 am | #

TELL ME U LOVE ME STILL/
I DO/ I DON'T KNOW HOW NOT TO/
THE 'HIM' U HATE/ IS IT UR DAD?
I ONLY LOVE YOU AND WANT YOU!!!!!
i've always been there. im begging u now. just answer ur house phone. i've been callin the whole day.

can u move on? ash's precious?

i can't
i'm losing...
my mind.
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:44 am | #

I WANNA REACH TO YOU.

I DON'T KNOW HOW.

PLS HELP ME.
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:45 am | #

GIVE ME ONE LAST CHANCE.

THERE WERE SO MANY CHANCES BTWN US.

I WILL KILL MYSELF IF I DON'T HEAR FROM YOU BY TMR 12NOON.

I LOVE YOU. ALWAYS WILL BE LOVING YOU

DO U WANT ME TO DIE? TO MAKE UP FOR ALL THE HURT? IM INJURED TOO DARLING. AND MAMA IS TRYING HER BEST TO KEEP US APART. DON'T

DON'T DONT

DON'T!
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:47 am | #

and now it's the whole world against me. everyone. im suffering. and all i want is you.
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:48 am | #

qing loves ash! qing loves ash!

*humph!

wha lau! fuck u lah!

ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:48 am | #

how abt ash_precious@hotmail for msn?

darling can u sneak out tonight and we run away together?

just sneak out tonight. i need to see you. call me from a pay phone if your dad is phone jailing you...

i trust that u can get back to me!

loves love. so much.

what happened to ur sim?
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:50 am | #

DARLING.
I WILL WAIT FOR YOU.
JUST DON'T GIVE UP.
ON US.

TRY TO GET BACK TO ME IF U CAN.
IM VERY HELPLESS AND DESPERATE.

MEET AT NYGH TONIGHT???? CALL ME WHEN U REACH?????? I HAVE TO SEE YOU.
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 6:55 am | #

i will wait. for you.

i know u wanna see me too. but u can't.

you're resourceful and smart darling.
my precious

i will wait for you to get to me with news. meantime i will get money. that's our plan right?

i love you.
ASH'S PRECIOUS'S PRECIOUS | 07.10.06 - 7:03 am | #

hey, i will be sleeping outside ur house at the staircase... when both ur parents are out, i will pass u a phone and sim ok? try to ask mama out to buy u food? ok ok?! don't angry anymore. im doin all i can. miss u so much. i cant stop crying. cant slp. didn't eat. and i won't eat til u forgive me.
LATEST PLANS | 07.10.06 - 8:10 am | #

tomorrow i have interview at eleven, hmv. I will go and get your sim card, get you a phone. i will be jar-heading at the staircase. fix a time with me ok, like maybe 4am, when both your parents are out or asleep. i will just pass you the phone so that you can contact me ok? hide it well. dont be scared, im here. you are never alone. would you want this arrangement?
READ THIS ; VERY IMPORTANT | 07.10.06 - 9:26 am | #

my parents wanna separate us. they dont understand. but i do. you do. we jarhead together and im gonna get lots of money.
ash's precious : | 07.10.06 - 10:00 am | #

you broke my heart. and you nearly break my neck.
explanations can be done here.
all the best for your interview.
get on with life.
qing | 07.10.06 - 11:13 am | #

randomly, i stumbled across this,
and my haloscan from years back till i met you,

and my entries from 03 till 06.

friends, family, frenemies,
i had it all
same goes for you.

remember how you hugged me and told me that if you were to be given a chance to choose your life all over again, you'll still want things to go the same way cos you cant bear to part with me?
on my room floor after our fight that night?
ha, the night you pulled a chris brown plus call police (:
nono, i'm not angry ok?
i just thought that's really sweet.

& it's the same,
exactly the same feeling i have, about you.
(:

you're a very special person to me.
the first person i want, for no apparent reason,
a desire so strong it's more of a need for survival

qing bites

8:55 AM

1. transparent tongue stud
2. wear specs to look old
3. wear the green and maroon dress to even older
4. wear the green flats to look demure
5. DO NOT wear the chunky t&co bracelet to look very poor and not hip
6. WEAR the bean necklace to look more demure
7. straighten hair, no hairband DO NOT tie up to look old

8. check up what's in sec 2 maths syllabus.

omg, i'm so stressed up seriously.

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3:51 AM

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

darling i totally love being with you,
sorry for not talking much these days,
i just dont want you to strain yourself.

i know it hurts for you to talk. )):

hope you can recover soon soon soon! :D

hopefully totally recover by my birthday!
i want to go on a foodie hunt and glutton spree with you for just a day too!

hug me soon please?
never have i thought i'll be so hug-sick
the kind of very squished up squash me tightly hug.
dont you miss it too?

qing bites

5:39 AM

Monday, April 13, 2009

fuck,
majorly pissed off.

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5:28 PM

(:

darling i'm so glad i have you.

i'm sorry for being such a difficult brat today. ):

you know how i wish i can be happy and cheer you up all the time,
but i promise i'll make you smile and laugh tomorrow (:
as always.

i dont want anything more badly than you and just you.

let's work doubly hard for our tiny cosy apartment somewhere in singapore!
then a not so tiny loft somewhere in the world ok? (:
i love you. night precious.

qing bites

5:37 AM

i wish you could decipher all my qingnagrams,
the one which i told you is a keyboard shift.

i wish you can say
YAHLOR!!
when i tell you that ants are very smelly after you squash them with your finger and sniff their carcass or what's remaining of them.

i wish you can tell
when i'm not really smiling cos there's something to be happy or glad about
but indeed, i'm smiling cos there's absolutely nothing to be happy about.

i think i'm asking for too much.
but right now i just wish you can eat and be happy again,
i'm sorry about your teeth.
hugs.

qing bites

2:24 AM

arrogant pretty bitch
on the out,

insecure paranoid lamb
in hiding.

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2:19 AM

Sunday, April 12, 2009

darling wo hen xiang ni!!! :((
thanks for coming down just to watch me eat 2 ice lollies.
really missed you alot today, was v happy to see you!
hope your laptop shopping was a fruitful one!
i go check out sony vaio SR now... which color are you getting darling?

anyway i sadd :((
looking thru' our timetable now, v shitty.
plus i still got so many tuition.
i'm really going to save up for lee hung ming then NO MORE SURGERY (hopefully!)
on days when i start late i'll come to school to have lunch with you and study in library ok?
omg subway opens in late april!

another 6 months then i'll be discussing what i'll be doing after graduation.
i'm fine with anything really.. all i want is our tiny cosy little home!
:D

ok gotta stop here, wound pain pain.
i stay in bed and wait for you to get home darling!
<3

qing bites

2:17 AM

Saturday, April 11, 2009

hello baby,

this period's gonna be real tough for you, )):
i know how it feels really, or maybe partially, cos i dont think my piercing's half as bad as removal of teeth plus bone,

i really want to hug you very tight and stroke you to tell you things will be fine soon, but besides thinking of what kind of food will be good for you, i cant and i dont really dare to do much.
cos you're so frail and fragile, now you're really my frail girl :D
ok that's not good.
i scared if i hug you too tight your wound will spur blood ):

hope you can recover soon love...
then i'll get to hug you again, not to mention eat and chomp chomp ohmmohmmm food down with you. i love to watch you eat.
it's systematic and consistent and you make all food look smell and sound good(:

dont give up ok? and dont be too scared, once you feel good enough, we can try to let you eat more variety, the soup today at cjade's awesome.

you look grouchy and tired i heartbreak):

i'll make sure i wake up early tomorrow to bring you food! :D
i'm thinking of going for kahmin since i've got nothing much to do.

see how first.

alot of misses. ):

i miss falling asleep with you on your tiny bed with my tiny space beside qing's wall.
which is in ash's room.

qing bites

4:03 AM

Friday, April 10, 2009

darling i just put on the retainer and it hurts :'(
but no choice, my last tooth is shaky and loose and i really think it's caused by the extraction of the wisdom beside it.
swelling is just as bad as ever. i read online that it takes about 10 days to de-swell.
and the nuh ppl quite dumb to give me a straw to drink because the suction will cause more bleeding and even a 'dry socket'. which sounds serious but i don't know what it is-ask dr hong next week.

i'm quite pissed at my dad still. not for what happened yesterday, but the fact that he loves to smoke inside the house and expects you to carry out a convo with him while he's fagging away. he initiated a convo just now; i couldn't stand the cigarette smell and i walked away.

all men are damn gross.

qing bites

5:14 PM

by the way baby,

she's one of the judges for national gymnastics,
:|

qing bites

2:47 AM

by the way darling!

can dont scold me? )): i scared

qing bites

2:42 AM

i called karen saying i'm cindy when i'm amy cos i was too tired,
but no worries, i was lucky enough to twist the story to that cindy's amy's sister and amy's having sorethroat. and that i'm calling to inform her.

omg, so tomorrow i'm calling back again

:|

better, i found out amy yee's full name is
yee kah yin amy
and she graduated from nus chemical and biomolecular engineering
-.-

qing bites

2:39 AM

Thursday, April 9, 2009

today is a very very special day!

my darling removed 3 wisdom tooth :|:| at one shot.

out of which 2 are impacted.

so she's now in the hospital trying to sleep):

poor baby, she looks like a very cute fat hamster hiding alot of food in her mouth
so much that she cannot open her mouth wide wide anymore

i'm going to sleep in 15min! :D

so i can wake up and appear right next to her in the morning to check her out (:

hehe,

hugs tightly. i love it when you sniff me all over,
my hair will all stand,
in the nice way. <3

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2:16 AM

Monday, April 6, 2009

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5:50 AM

Thursday, April 2, 2009

hello baby,
today was so eh,
weirdly eventful! :D

qing bites

3:42 AM

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

my turn to blog! :)

i'm still sneezing v badly darling. and fever's coming up. :(
must really recover fast fast. so many things coming up...

like dance
london
hospital
tuition

yeah, 6 hours tuition is crazy. don't think i'll ever attempt that again :S

qing bites

1:06 AM

today's a very special day!

31/3 shall be our pee in a bucket/plastic bag day from now on.

we have to do it every year ok?

hehehe.
it's so hilarious that i couldnt hold my laughter in even when your papa's just next door.
that i have to resort to vibrate-laughing in your comforter to muffle the giggles.
but darling! you look so matter-of-fact and seriously when you semi sit over the red bucket.
i should have snapped a pic but i thought that'll really make us both lol then we'll be not so giggly when your papa go
OEI! GEI WO CHU LAI!!!!!

hmm,
ok la not so funny cos my baby is very sick ):

i hope you recover very soon it's going to be 8pm, let's go to bed.
so not us,

i'm sorry for taking up space on your bed and also stealing your blanket last night

hugs.
be mine forever ok? <3333
serious, please dont divert your thoughts to my bloody valentine.

qing bites

12:48 AM