Sunday, August 31, 2008

Your view on yourself:You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on educationEducation is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

qing bites

3:12 AM

got this quiz off peter's blog, darling you try it (once only, cannot cheat!) and paste ur result here!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

quite true hor?! i do care about my image, like i hate to be pui pui. and my mood swing can be drastic. and overall everything quite true i feel! this is a short and fun story-mode kind of quiz!
share your result with me here baby!

<3

qing bites

2:41 AM

Saturday, August 30, 2008

hello darling!!!

EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER! oh, and you just texted me to say you'll be home soon.
was quite scared when i called your mobile and it says "the m1 customer... not available."

i got two pairs of nice jeans! a levi's 501 (no discount, $150+) and a lee cooper (this one i like alot! $80 after discount from its original $100) the lee cooper one is a grey slim fit with this strap, super cool! the levi's one also quite tight (coz i wanna lose weight badly) is a button fly one. think i look good in both so quite pleased (:

darling! go see see dawn yang's blog!
adidas having this promotion right now: trade in any pair of old sneakers and get $50 off adidas sneakers! (i have a few to throw away, maybe we can get you new running shoes?!) it's supposed to be for charity some more... for ANDREW&GRACE! wth right. but since it benefits us and aunty ros was nice to us so... :D

it ends sept 7th!! which means we must go see see tmr!!!

anyway that ivan cut hair so expensive i think i'm not going for him le.
HAIR GROWS!

darling i very scared now.
coz the last time you read xiaxue's blog, you wanted her juicy couture phone.
so DON'T READ HER LATEST ENTRY OK!!
even if you read, eh, DON'T LOOK AT THE PICTURES OK!!

haha i go shower now, resting early tonight, audrey tmr morning!

qing bites

1:56 AM

Friday, August 29, 2008

hello baby.

one last paper to go for you!

and then that's the end of the gruelling exams!:D

heh.

i know there's itp.

it might not be as bad as it seems!

(:

waiting for you to get home now so i can call you!

omg our hamsterboy got serious body odour problem

i wore the mask i got from sgh to change bedding for him just now.

-face turns green

qing bites

1:10 AM

Tuesday, August 26, 2008

darling i was browsing thru' my idol sam chua's blog when i came across
www.meat.org
omg this website should be rated M18 (gore, not for the faint-hearted)
and i suddenly decided i want to be a vegetarian!

can i? will you still love me if i become a vegan?

i think it'll benefit us in terms of health and everything! lalala.
(as you can see i am very traumatised by "meet your meat" and since i can't puke i went to brush teeth and shower and now i'm gonna make myself the digestive tea and never touch meat again.)

the poor little gugu :'(

qing bites

3:04 AM

Sunday, August 24, 2008

sunday today.
and i'm still having bad diarrhea even though fever is mostly gone.

gotta mug. this is such a bad time to fall sick.

i can't wait to travel overseas with you too darling :D

it's just that right now too much is on my mind :((
very stressful, not fun stuff

like
exams
itp
bills
fyp
end of probation! :)

ok i go diarrhea again. fuck.

qing bites

4:53 PM

i dont know what the fuck is wrong with me.

at this point of time, when the most unlikely thing is for me to be conjuring up images of us on an overseas trip together. TOGETHER.

and guess what.
i'm on this website.

http://www.cebupacificair.com

well done qing.
fuck.

qing bites

2:44 AM

Friday, August 22, 2008

hello darling!

i'm glad the last 2 paper's gone pretty well for you and me! :D
that's a good sign!

you're at peter's now. hope the next 3 papers for you will be manageable as well!

look forward to end of exam and end of itp! then it's just a mere 2months plus for the end of your probation!

darling i found something very sad and disturbing online.

Lost baby whale euthanised in Australia

A lost baby whale which captured hearts around the world as it tried to suckle from an Australian yacht it thought was its mother was killed Friday to end its suffering, wildlife rangers said.
"The calf has been quietly and humanely euthanised," National Parks and Wildlife Service spokesman Chris McIntosh told AFP. "It was a sad moment, but it went quietly to sleep."
A vet on board a small boat in Pittwater bay near Sydney's Palm Beach first administered an anaesthetic through a large needle, by simply leaning overboard and injecting the weakened humpback calf, he said.
The animal, nicknamed Colin, was then moved into shallow water and given the euthanasia drug.
The calf's fate had been the focus of desperate concern in Australia as efforts to reunite it with passing pods of humpback whales failed.
The army was asked whether it could help float Colin back out to sea while a scientist suggested it could be fed formula milk through an artificial teat.
And an Aboriginal 'whale whisperer' was brought in to comfort him, singing ancient songs which brought Colin to the side of the national parks' boat, where it lifted its head and allowed itself to be patted.
"He felt really lonely and he wanted to be with his mother and family," said Bunna Lawrie of the Mirning tribe from the Great Australian Bight.
But the head of the national parks service, Sally Barnes, said that while the decision to euthanise the whale was difficult there was no other option.
"It was suffering extremely so we've had to make the very difficult decision," she said.
The calf was first spotted on Sunday and had weakened rapidly over the past couple of days without the daily 230 litres of mothers' milk which it would normally consume.
In a remarkable effort to return it to the ocean, the calf was lured out to sea on Monday by a 'mother ship', a whale-sized yacht from which it had been trying to suckle after apparently being abandoned by its mother.
But after failing to find its own mother or an adoptive parent among the pods of whales passing Pittwater, Colin returned to the bay and again began trying to suckle yachts.
The humpbacks are on the return leg of an epic annual round trip from the Antarctic to tropical waters to breed, and they can be seen ploughing homewards not far off Sydney's beaches on most days.
Experts say that the passing whales and Colin would have been able to communicate as they passed by, but that the chance of him being adopted was always extremely slim.

so poor thing right?
):

how come nobody wants to adopt him, he's so cute and clueless.
i hope his soul rest in peace.

qing bites

5:03 PM

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

darling dont stress.
just put in as much time and effort as you can.
and right now's not the time to worry about audrey and bills and everything else.
we'll pay partial of the phone bill first ok?

nothing very very bad will happen.
just as long as you're healthy and alive!:D
cos there's a solution to anything at all.

i know whatever i'm typing here's like pretty useless and too generic to help.

but everything comes and goes.
while i'll stay to be with you infinitely (:

qing bites

2:55 AM

first paper tmr. PSYCHED.
all i can hear is them talking damn loudly and smoking next door.
fucking hate faggers. and their convo topic is wtf?!
i'm trying to study.
empty vessels make the most noise.

nice mr whey e-mailed me back to encourage me to keep up the hard work.
finally somebody who recognised me efforts.
i feel quite hurt. but fuck it. people are just people.
human beings are only interested in talking about themselves,
not giving a care that no one is interested in their boring lives.

it's not that hard to lose your marbles. psychopaths walk among us.

i can understand why liu xiang dropped out.
so much pressure on him, mad china.
tmr is the start of my race and i can't even drop out.
mine is a long race.
too much is at stake if i fail.
i cannot fail. failure is not an option.

the more people i meet the more i love my smelly socks.

qing bites

2:17 AM

Sunday, August 17, 2008

i just cant stand being alone without you for more than a day.
or a night.
it feels so wrong. like how it was like.

i hope you feel the same way too

qing bites

7:16 PM

Saturday, August 16, 2008

at the age of 23, i feel like i'm ready to give up life itself. seriously tired. drained.
and soon i'll even run out of words to say.

slavery. night and day. at first i thought i'd focus for my lasik coz i really need it.
then it seems like i'll never get it anyway.
so why am i slaving for i don't know.
tuition with audrey. tuition with peter. mugging for exams. FYP. ITP. probation.
and i don't even get a fucking break!

from socks to undergarment to your toothpaste to your phone bill,
i'm doing my best for you when i don't have parental support myself.
why is it that even friends like peter can understand my situation and you
don't even heartache me? and yet you still claimed that you love me.
and that i'm only a girl.

i'm only 3 years older than you! not fit enough to be your mother!
fucking hell if i ever see your fucking parents i would summon enough rage for all my pain inside to manhandle them both!

flash your chest to all the disgusting men for all you like,
the freedom to do so is yours.
and the disdain i feel is rightfully mine too.

your chastity, if you don't care, why should i even bother?

qing bites

2:07 AM

Thursday, August 14, 2008

darling you're in the shower.
i'm VERY very VERY very hungry right now.
think the popcorn we ate's all popped into air molecules.
):
very sad.

sorry if i'm being irritating.
but you always sound so patient and you are very patient and nice to me
all the time

suddenly i'm reminded of the days in auckland.
when i'll suddenly plunge into a financial crisis.
cos i always spend the wrong money at the wrong time on the wrong things.
and i always fall sick. consultation there alone's already 40

then i'll have no choice but to cook instant.
haha, that kind of unleashed my cooking talent.
remember how i told you i add all sorts of things inside?
shanghai xiao bai cai
tomatoes
egg
prawn stick
plus the instant noodles.

i tried almost all the instant in the asian supermarket you know?
but they dont sell doggie noodles ):

darling i miss you. so much

hope your throat heals soon
my ear too.

and i really had alot of fun these few days.
it'll be nice if you truly are enjoying yourself as well.
i hate to see you moody and sad.
and i hate it when you tell me i screwed up your life.
although i really did.

it makes me feel like
i'm doing the wrong thing being with you
but at the same time.
you're this vital part of me i can never let go of.
to live without you is to live without living.

do you know?

qing bites

4:28 AM

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

today is a very special day! :D
COZ DARLING FINALLY SING K WITH ME!!! lalala.
and omg, her voice sounds exactly like whichever singer song she's singing.
(looks like bingyang can be a singing teacher alr!)

quite expensive but worth every cent! plus we 'clubbed' in the dark room to sammi's dance tracks!
dance makes a person feel good!
esp if it's the anyhow jump jump bop bop look like an idiot kind of dance! lol.

still can't solve audrey's (victoria math paper) question.
confidence hits an all time low. aka i feel very stupid. )):

been having quite a bit of harmless fun :D
but unfortch, fun has gotta take a break.
focus on exam, money and ITP
and then after ITP darling says only 2 month to end of probation!!!

i'll be so good i promise. hope everything goes smoothly. -scared

qing bites

2:34 AM

Monday, August 11, 2008

of the very miserable allowance that they fund me with,
i'm being robbed of my peace,
on a very large scale.
and no i cant tell them to fuck off like you do to your mama.
i have to bear with it tolerate it try to block everything out.

fuck.

so much for her 10 dollars phone.
so much for her 40 per week.
and subsidise me for medical bills.

darling can i not get 40 per mth for the phone bill already?
i can barely take her shit anymore.

my phone's running on shit battery, which has to entertain teachers classmates tuition.
and she hounds me all the time with like 20 miss calls every single time i off my phone.
then my phone goes flat after the call alert sms comes in.

sometimes i wish they can just leave me alone.

they never see how things went wrong on their end.
it's always me me me me me.
i'm the one at fault.
for every single tiny bit of thing.

the same applies.
to anything with my involvement.
cos i'm always the one with the flaws and mistakes.

qing bites

12:32 AM

Sunday, August 10, 2008

darling i'm very stressed )):

so many things to do, so little time.
one hurdle after another.
after the exams it's hell at tuas for me.
all these and i gotta intensify tuition with aud coz her O levels coming and i need money.

will i be able to pull thru'? i sure hope so.
(maybe i could train myself to think and feel like a robot)

hughug? )):

qing bites

6:31 PM

Saturday, August 9, 2008

hello love.
you're showering now.
i'm waiting for the heater.
parents are going a bit dingdingding.
cos they on the air con very very cold.
and are now snuggling under a blanket watching the olympic opening ceremony.
complaining that it's very cold.
i think they're just wasting money.

ok, let's not talk about them.

darling i'm extremely apologetic about today ):
sorry for taking it out on you.
there's no excuse to it you're right.
i shouldnt flare up just cos i had a tough time at home.
hmmm, but i really didnt receive your text msg.
shall tell mama to quickly gimme her phone.

i'm happy that you're happy darling!
but are you really happyhappy?
:D

cos if you are! then i'm very excited!
i want to see you smile like a satisfied little kid,
like you just got a triple scoop icecream and you dont know where to start licking on first.

hehe

dont frown so much cos of the itp, think about it this way, it's not as stressful and bad as cptc, will it be?
dont think so, at least you get paid 500?
cptc doesnt even give you A CENT.
and there's transport arrangement as well is there? (:
either ways, i'll give it a check ok?
hopefully you'll be in good hands.

ok i better go shower now!
:D

yes, i like it like this, though i dont get SO SO SO close to you, but at least i know we're working progressively towards getting closer and closer on a very stable track.

hughugs!

qing bites

2:33 AM

Friday, August 8, 2008

hello baby
i'm extremely happy too.
just 2 days without you, and i already felt like there's no point in doing anything at all.

YES! happy day!
(:
i like it when you're happy baby, so just go ahead and do things which are enriching and fun ok?
but can tell me where you are? if not i worried if you go missing for very long. ):
i want to exercise too!!:D
so let's go cycling after the exams ok? (:

i heartache too.
when you sound very sad over msn last night, then i couldnt fall asleep.
like, it feels like a part of me's missing.
remember how i told you even if you push me away, i'll still try to find my way back to you?
i always will.
no matter what happens just as long as you dont mind me.

darling i know you love me. alot. and i know i mean alot to you.
still, there's the immense hurt i've caused you. all the sufferings i've put you through,
):
yet you're forgiving me all the time, no matter how i piss you off or irritate you.
sometimes i feel happy enough just being able to be right next to you.
i admit, i'm unappreciative.
but i'll never forget how much we both went through, just to be back together like now.
and how you're risking everything just to be with me. ):

i'll be good and nice and everything you want.
(:

YEAH! actually i like the AGNESB bag also hahaha
all the angmohs like to carry it hor?!
it's in my room now and the books are on my shelf.
they didnt appear so thick in borders but yeha, now they do look scary.

darling you know me so well.
i really like the racoon alotalot!!!
:D
hehehehe
if we didnt buy it today, i think i'll travel all the way down to borders once in a bit just to look at it.

and it's the last piece!!!!:D

hugs.
very tight.

sometimes i wonder will i ever just wake up one morning to find you missing.
cos you're too good to be with me as you are.
ilu.

qing bites

3:37 AM

HAPPY DAY TODAY!!! :D

darling, i hope you had a bit of fun too.
my heart ached when i saw you flipping your beloved thick books.
you looked so skinny and dark eye bags.
my heart ached ):

all i want is for you to be happy and healthy. with me!
coz i love you. very much.

hope your scarily thick books and the bandit racoon with colorful fluffy tail can keep you company when i can't be there aka when i'm stuck at home and you are stuck at your home.
:)

i really like the "Agnes B" bag ok! used to envy those ang mohs carrying it- so high class. hahaha.
hmmm, suddenly i think of the pretty mooks wallet! i like it alot!
maybe can get it as a treat after i settle all the bills :)

darling i feel largely obesed whenever i'm near darren -..- <------ see, pig face!

ok la, i go read my psych notes now. stupid internet working again, got no excuse alr.

LOVE YOU! ONLY YOU! NOW AND FOREVER MORE!

qing bites

3:06 AM

Tuesday, August 5, 2008

bingyang says:
OK got approval from the creative director to change the pic... I think i didnt do her justice by typing what i did. firstly... she's Not really into that. it's jus a distinct identity thing she wants for herself...

baby i hate shuyin

she's got sth against lesbians fucking hell

qing bites

4:15 AM

hello baby
i'm done with the humanbio just (:

didnt get to tell you how shuyin is damn irritating this afternoon at the library.
all my nerves are stepped dead by her already omg.
i nearly told her to f off but instead i decided to be civilised so i gave her a f off face.

tired ):

but i shall get through 2 chapt of apchem later:D

dont scared ok baby? and dont stress.

whatever happens, you'll always have me!
i may be tiny and irritating and useless
still i'll be good and do what we both should be doing ok?

hughugs

let's just get through this very tough period first and wheee!
it's the break!
whatever it is, i'm determined to not risk anything anymore.
so no more sleeping over for now ):
but no worries we have a huge huge long long way to go i scared one day you get sick of sleeping next to me

baby am i good enough for the wait?

i hope i am (:

to be honest i'm quite worried about you darling
it's like you dont really voice out your problems and stress,
i know what's going on for you but i dont really know the intensity.
and yup, people cope with stress differently, i'm a bit off in the sense that i like it.
hmm i dont know why.
i know you want to exercise, but now's not a good time we can go chill a tiny bit at east coast and cycle cycle if you want once a week still ((:

eh darling i want to show you sth very bitchy!
but think better do it tomorrow when you're up.

your heat transfer program's still on my com.
hmmm

ANYHOW

ILOVEYOU!!!

i dont know why,
however tiny my heart is.
it's filled to the brim with my yi da kua rou bao:D

hugs.
very tight

qing bites

3:24 AM

Sunday, August 3, 2008

i should be revising for gen opt now
and you should be doing fluid mech.

you're trying to distract mb so she can continue paying for your school fees
i just cant seem to get myself settled to start studying.

but anyhow, i shall start doing something to motivate us!

after the papers.
i'm going to run once every 2 days.(:
every run shall be at least 20min:D
we go cycle once every week! twice if we have the time
i'm going to sign up for studio wu.
cos i really want to dance )):
can?

hopefully i can get the assignment at je.
p6 but i'll try to get them to hire me for next year as well
ok i go try to mug...

darling i cant find
what hurts the most
the version we heard at stadium
):
till this moment, i downloaded 5 different versions already

qing bites

8:41 PM

darling i'm sorry for disturbing you the night before your papers.
didnt mean to really,
but what you said's hurt me alot.
i just wanted you to tell me you love me.
still, i'm guiltridden now. ):

you know you're so damn adorable when you fold lips? (:
and when you drool?
and when i kiss you near your lips, there's always a moist little patch.
heh.
like a little kid.
how can i ever bear to hurt you at all.

secretly, but i bet you know,
i just want to hold your hand every single where we go. toilets inclusive.
and at night, i just wish to cling tight to you and breath in the air you breath out.
have you hug me tight and clasp wrap me like a little egg omelette in the morning.

we'll have those soon, every day. right?

i dont mind waiting.
cos good things are worth the wait.
that applies to only you baby. (:

i'm glad we're not found out.
i was so scared i think i turned pale.
i know you went pale too.
your po's right we're taking too huge a risk.
it's your probation, your education, your shelter we betting on.
so let's play it safe(:
i'll be good and listen to you.
HUGS TIGHT.

ilu my little chimp!
-fold lips!

qing bites

5:14 AM

Friday, August 1, 2008

):

oldest pain older pain old pain new pain newer pain newest pain
layers and layers and layers.

qing bites

4:04 AM